born in the shadow of the white house

annie_bartlet @ 2009-12-03T02:27:00

2009-12-03T07:27:46Z

Things are moving along swimmingly. Actually have a doctor's appointment in a couple days. This is different. I knew it before and I know it now. I know why too. Seems life is gaining speed again. Hopefully I know which way to steer and it won't be into a wall, though if that wall is padded or otherwise leads to something not so bad, I wouldn't mind. I really wouldn't mind.

Also, I think this may be a fetish of my husband's liking. I used to tease him about it before, but he seems like a dog in heat now. I'm not ready. Not right now anyway.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-10-06T13:42:00

2009-10-06T17:43:01Z

[Private Entry]

There is nothing going on. She's so beautiful and the tattoo looks like she just had it done yesterday. We always teased her about that. Get bright colors and you'll have a silly looking tattoo. She went to work this morning. Sometimes she's with me and sometimes she's at work. I like the days that she's here. It's comforting.

Him on the other hand. He can go to work. She helps me realize that she's really all I need to get by. Just her.

Needing to be Cryptic

2009-09-28T07:14:11Z

I have to see him again. I have to see him to tell him about this.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-09-01T00:14:00

2009-09-01T04:25:40Z

I miss him, but we aren't meant like I thought we were. He's beautiful and dangerous at the same time. I missed that. I miss not having to worry about anyone or anything or who I was with. Coming home to an empty house with just my little puppy (who really isn't a puppy anymore) and an agent or two was great.

Jag önskar att jag kunde gå tillbaka till den tid. Jag önskar att denna var all en dröm ibland och går precis tillbaka. Det är inte en dröm. Det orsakar mig stor sorgsenhet.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-07-26T01:22:00

2009-07-26T05:22:50Z

Moving from one man to another is so unlike me. And he's really cute. Looks like her in the morning.

One would think there'd be a girl thrown in there somewhere.

Life is in a constant musical spiral. Whether that be upward or not is completely up to you...though I know the truth.

Kjærlighet til Meg Livet

2009-07-18T04:49:34Z

Meg husband er også krever og også beskytter. JEG kanne ikke ha det. Jeg vil ikke ha det. Det er en hvorfor JEG igjen hjem. JEG hat den der nå. Alt om den. Han er hva anledninger meg lidelsen. Han er hva anledninger meg smerte. Det spiller ingen rolle hva andre mennesker overveie. Bare meg.

Livet er sprø. Hun har kommet tilbake. Jeg ikke vite hvor. Jeg vil ikke spør. Jeg vil , i stedet , feire den stund den vare.

It's upsetting that I must do these posts in other languages. It's the only way to keep my journal.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-07-08T18:28:00

2009-07-08T22:30:15Z

She still doesn't like me. Jay still doesn't listen.

No one respects me.

mother superior jump the gun

2009-06-26T05:21:10Z

Things happen and one thought they could have it stored away in their mind. Nothing ever just goes away, especially when we want it to. It only lurks in the shadows until we aren't looking. Waits and watches for the most unfortunate time to strike, like a python.

We are but pawns in this game of life. The rest of the pieces are never what you want them to be, but what there is; What's available to us.

Liv är lik Frånfälle bara smartare. Vilan är vår gör. Vi kontroll den.

I've tasted blood and I want more.

2009-06-15T05:45:07Z

I can't describe what I'm feeling. He tries to fix things and it's only annoying. It's something I have to do alone. I have to figure it out and fix it.

I know what I have to do.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-05-30T12:42:00

2009-05-30T16:43:07Z

I feel like swimming or something. I want summer to be here now.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-05-22T03:01:00

2009-05-22T07:01:15Z

Some days, I feel like escaping to a deserted island where there's only beautiful people to serve me frozen drinks and offer back rubs at a snap. Maybe I'd want jamie_sanders, so I guess he can come too. Though, he can't get mad at me for gawking at the hot dicks and chicks there though. It's just been one of those "pain-in-the-ass" days.

Also, saw that a classmate of mine died in the newspaper the other day. My mother brought my attention to it. We weren't close, but I knew him. He was a great guy. I think I may go to the funeral or something. It did make me think about what I've been doing in life lately though. If I'm what I dreamed of being years ago. If I'm anything remotely like that. I do dream of what a possible life I would have had with Stacy. She was so beauful and perfect. She would have been so great with Jay, even though she'd never admit to it, she probably would have even liked him. He acts exactly like her, by the way. I think she probably came back in him just to spite me. :) Sounds like something she'd do.

Life is too short to think about when it's all going to end. Live each day as you'd want to live your last and you would have no regrets.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-05-09T18:34:00

2009-05-09T22:47:25Z

The kids and I went to the park, the twins are pushing up on their arms now, almost scooting, so they are really digging belly time. Jay is still wild, he's a pain in the ass in all honesty. I don't really get why he's like that. Like he has ADD or something. The boy rarely ever sits still. Hopefully Jack won't do anything like that, or Grace for that matter. I'm going to have a playground built at the house I believe. That way we can all relax a little more.

Jamie is still at work, everyone is sleeping, so now I get a bit of alone time. I'm painting and then reading or something. Going rogue.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-04-23T01:30:00

2009-04-23T05:39:15Z

In case the kids haven't gotten on my last nerve, I've again taken up painting. The twins like the quiet of the closed in porch. I put up the screens so they're able to hear the outside. I think they like the sound of the birds and the fresh air. Luckily it makes them tired as well. That's always good. Jay has been spending time with my grandparents, mostly because I can only take him in small doses . Wow, that's sad.

I'm going to sleep. Everyone have a good night.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-04-12T23:48:00

2009-04-13T03:50:10Z

This weather and water are so great. I'm pretty afraid I'm going to get bitten or something though, I don't know why. Jamie says I'm nuts.

The Els look happy. I'm glad. They deserve it through and through.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-03-12T00:10:00

2009-03-12T04:22:55Z

How the hell does Ella get beaten up like that? I thought that didn't happen here. Hell, they even put Parent One and Parent Two on birth certificates now because this place is so damn mellow about being gay.

Ella looks like she's been through hell, luckily Ellie is keeping her doped up so she doesn't know any better.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-03-06T01:01:00

2009-03-06T06:11:20Z

It's my mother fucking birthday. 22 never looked so good.

Jay and I are clearly destined to be rivals.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-02-26T01:13:00

2009-02-26T06:14:21Z

What the hell happened? Feel like I've been out a while.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-02-21T19:48:00

2009-02-22T00:48:14Z

I finally received the designer made dress for the thing. It fits me like a glove. Like it was made for me or something. I'll tell more about it later, having it steamed. Hopefully things go well.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-02-16T18:08:00

2009-02-16T23:16:28Z

Had a dream that Jay ran away and became a loan shark...I don't really get it either.

The twins are being clingy and I think Jack has an eating disorder, he just won't stop eating, but he's my fat little baby as well and it doesn't really bother me. He's a lot bigger than Gracie already. Had to take all of them out today, that was a feat in itself. Though the special coach really helps. Talked to some of my usual designers on the phone, so we'll see what they come up with for this thing.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-01-31T21:15:00

2009-02-01T02:15:18Z

I think for the first time in my entire life, I may be the only normal one in my family.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-01-31T15:31:00

2009-01-31T20:31:27Z

I'll do what needs to be done where she is concerned. Whatever makes her happy, I swear. No one is going to stop me either.

Also, the past doesn't really mean shit to me. Never has. I am who I am because I choose to be that way, not because of anyone else. I'm happy of who I am. I'm proud of who I am. That's how it always was, that's how it will always be. I don't give a shit about my "parents" or their backstory or their current story. I just want them both happy, respectfully. Doesn't matter if it's together, apart, in Canada, in Aruba. I just want them happy. But I'm a Bartlet. Nothing is going to change that. Not his family, not my care or concern for his family. Nothing. I'm still a Bartlet. Zoey and El are more like sisters to me than they are my aunts, same with Liz. So it may be topsy turvy, yes, but it's who I am and how I feel and how I've always felt.

End of story. Let's not bring it up again.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-01-03T13:58:00

2009-01-03T18:58:51Z

I would just like to show this picture of my husband because I'm on my deathbed and could die at any second. I also enjoy teasing the shit out of my husband because of our overseas baby that doesn't exist.

Those are my hands on that sweet ass. Oh and I'm not high either. He's making me suffer. Pokes me with hot sticks in the ribcage.

annie_bartlet @ 2009-01-01T12:24:00

2009-01-01T17:24:10Z

I know I'm right with what I said about this being a better, safer, healthier place to raise my kids.

He's a moron.

Happy New Year by the way.

Jamie and Annie

2009-01-01T03:45:30Z

Annie: "Jamie...three hours straight?" Annie catches her breath, lying nude underneath the covers.

Jamie: "Making up for lost time." He crawls out from under the covers.

Annie: "I didn't know you were capable of that."

Jamie: "I'm the man."

Annie: "You're...a beast."

Jamie: He grunts at her.

Annie: "You're just lucky Ellie and Ella are taking care of the kids." She wraps the loosely knit blanket around her, going to the window, "Snowed again last night."

Jamie: "Stupid snow." He pulls her close.

Annie: "You didn't seem to even notice." She turns slowly in his arms, kissing him.

Jamie: "It's cold."

Annie: "Not that cold."

Jamie: "Is so."

Annie: "Not at all. I'm pretty warm." She looks up at him.

Jamie: He kisses her neck. "Glad you are."

Annie: She smirks, "Again?"

Jamie: "I'm not sure if I can." He holds her. "How weird is it that your aunt and my best friend are dating?"

Annie: "Good, because I think you'd sooner pass out." She nods, "I don't think it's weird...plus she's more like my sister, so it isn't weird anyway."

Jamie: "Yeah, but they're chicks." He pauses, thinking about that. He grins.

Annie: She raises an eyebrow, "And I was with many of them, Jackass." She moves from his arms, sliding her robe on.

Jamie: He grins again. "That's hot."

Annie: "That isn't what you were thinking."

Jamie: "Was so."

Annie: "You were thinking...gay." She sighs.

Jamie: He nods.

Annie: "Ew...they're gay now." She gives him a look.

Jamie: "It's hot."

Annie: "Not what you were thinking." She walks down to the kitchen, getting some coffee that turned on automatically.

Jamie: He follows her. "Two girls getting it on is hot."

Annie: "Didn't think so when I was with a girl."

Jamie: "Because it's you. I don't want you shared with anyone."

Annie: "Selfish bastard."

Jamie: He nods. "Damn straight. You are all mine."

Annie: She shrugs, "And stop thinking of my sister naked."

Jamie: "Your sister?"

Annie: "Ellie...look, you could learn more about me...mostly how I grew up."

Jamie: "I wasn't thinking." He was running porn scenes through his head.

Annie: "Such a perv." She shakes her head, sitting on the counter top as she sips the hot liquid.

Jamie: "It's why you love me."

Annie: "And here I thought it was your boy next door looks."

Jamie: "That too."

Annie: She grins, watching him, "I think it's funny when you walk around naked."

Jamie: "Why?"

Annie: She shrugs, "Never do."

Jamie: He struts for her. "You love seeing Pedro?"

Annie: "Why did you pick that name?"

Jamie: "Don't remember."

Annie: "I like mini Jamie better."

Jamie: "Ask him."

Annie: "No because you're gross."

Jamie: "He's sad now. He's going to have to go see Rosy."

Annie: "Who the hell is Rosy?"

Jamie: "Rosy Palm and her five friends."

Annie: "Oh my lord. So gross, Jamie."

Jamie: He smirks at her.

Annie: "You are." She shakes her head, glancing out the window.

Jamie: "What?" He looks out the window with her.

Annie: "Nothing, I just really like the snow." She smiles.

Jamie: "Why?"

Annie: "It's my childhood here." She nods, "It's just something you wouldn't understand."

Jamie: "I'm trying to learn. That's why we're raising the kids here."

Annie: "It's a better place, Jamie. The crime rate is just about nonexistent." She slides off the counter, "I think it has to do with the climate or something."

Jamie: He rolls his eyes. "The redneck Riviera is pretty special too."

Annie: "What are you talking about?"

Jamie: "Home."

Annie: "Yes, well...I don't quite understand that."

Jamie: "I know." He's soft.

Annie: "We go there during the summer. It equals the time."

Jamie: He shakes his head. "I wish you'd understand."

Annie: "Jamie. You married me and this is what it means. We go for the holidays that are important to you."

Jamie: "I wish you wouldn't insult where I'm from though."

Annie: "I never insulted where you were from."

Jamie: "You just did."

Annie: "How, Jamie?"

Jamie: "You just said that New Hampshire is a better place." He's soft, his feelings hurt.

Annie: "Jamie, there have been studies and things done. Crime rate, yours is in the top five. Mine is at the end of the list.

Jamie: "Doesn't make it better."

Annie: "Yes, on this it does." She nods, "The best air quality, mine is at the top of the list. Yours is in the bottom five." She shakes her head, "It may have been good for your parents, but my children will not be raised there when they can have the best."

Jamie: "I am a product of where I'm from. I'm proud of what I came from, our traditions and things."

Annie: "And so am I, so shut up please."

Jamie: He shakes his head, going to get a blanket to wrap around himself.

Annie: She walks away from him, jogging back upstairs.

annie_bartlet @ 2008-10-01T00:59:00

2008-10-01T05:01:28Z

I am fine. Really am.

Crawling is my new mode of transportation cause that motor scooter, or whatever it is you want to call it, is a pain in the ass most of the time.